It’s amazing how quickly you realize just how badly you want something. I believe the saying “you don’t realize what you have, until it’s gone” is true. It has taken me sometime to actually talk about this with someone other than my husband and my friends.

This year has been a rollercoaster of a ride with ups and downs. We moved into our new home on my birthday. A little under a month later, we found out that we were expecting our 3rd. We were so excited! I couldn’t wait to share the news with my closest friends. We knew after Addie was born that we wanted one more! And the timing was perfect! I was due in early November and I’d have a few months off during the slow season to relax at home with the baby!

A week after that, we found out that we were losing our 3rd. It hit me a lot harder than I ever thought it would. I lost my Mother in 2008 and that was seriously the hardest time in my life. But I had spent 20something years with her. I never imagined losing a little person who I’d never even met or held or touched could be so emotional for me. I know it’s not the end of the world, but it hurt. I know a lot of women have been through the same thing, but at that moment, I felt so alone. All I wanted to do was lay in the bed and binge on episodes of Pretty Little Liar. I’m not even sure how I made it out of the doctors office without completely breaking down. I’m not sure why I’m sharing this now, but I really hope that I can encourage someone else who may be going through the same thing that I did. Lean on your support system and know that things will get better. It’s easier said than done, but it can be done. I’ve heard that time helps to heal all things, so I pray that God and time will help heal our hearts as well! We are so grateful and thankful for our daughters and know that everything happens for a reason. Everything happens on God’s time, not ours.